I am at a crossroads. Nothing earth-shattering, but as I sit here staring at the mostly-blank screen before me, I am facing a decision: my domain is expiring, do I renew and continue blogging or do I pull the plug?
I began this blog as “Dolly Doormat Doesn’t Live Here”. Initially it was designed to empower women, albeit with a snarky spin. As my content grew, my snarkiness subsided and I realized my true voice is in my compassion. I stepped back and regrouped and relaunched. I never intended The Yellow Kite to gain a huge, world-wide audience, I simply hoped each post would resonate with those–both male and female–who needed to hear my message.
I believe I met that objective, but one never really knows without feedback and interaction. To obtain both feedback and interaction requires connection. Creating connection requires time and effort. Therein lies the true issue: do I have the time and energy to commit to this to make it grow, do I continue as I have and post sporadically, or do I wrap it up and focus on other things?
When I ask myself those questions, others arise: Do I enjoy blogging and sharing my message? Do I believe sharing my life experiences can help someone else? Is what I say of any value or entertaining to others? Is this adding anything to my own life? What if I run out of things to say? If this is something I want to do, then why do I find it so hard to find time to do it? And, the biggest question of all–in this world filled with threats of terrorism, police and race relation tensions, and political issues, who cares about what I have to say? You see, something as simple as a little blog can be fraught with decisions!
While I ponder my decision, I realize life is cyclical and the current state of my life isn’t permanent. Right now I feel overwhelmed by things outside this blog, but one day all that will fall into place and I will again have more time and energy to devote to activities like this.
As I watch the words fill the screen, I admit I feel peace within, I feel the tenuous threads of connection to others, and I feel there is only one right answer. I will renew my domain and continue with The Yellow Kite, albeit sporadically.
So, as I close, I know my eyes may be the only to read this and that’s ok. However, I also know you may have stumbled upon it and have read this far–thank you and I hope you’ll come back again! Perhaps, one day, I will have something to say that can shed some light on an issue you face, make you laugh, sooth your heart, or simply make you feel you’re not alone in this big, misunderstood world. And that is why I blog.
I will stay.
The Yellow Kite